I got a reply from an old friend yesterday, and she told me that she got rid of all her old photos and gifts from her ex-s when she was pregnant with her second child. It was like a final closure to the old chapter of her life. She didn’t want her kids to see any of her diary entries etc regarding her ex or people she used to date with. and her focus was her family.
As I am waiting for “D” day to come, I have sometimes rather vivid dreams and recollections of people from the past. I think my hubbie is doing the same thing too, cos yesterday afternoon I saw him scanning all the pictures from the old album and then throwing the photos away. I was wondering to myself if it upset me to see photos of his ex-es. It seems weird to me I guess to want to scan photos of your past and put it into some filing order, and yet not contact them at all.
For me, resolving the past means whether I have made amendments to the relationship or I guess to whether I started any reconciliation process, and kinda wish them well for the future. In short, I try to remain as friends, all except for one where I know if I kept in touch, it will do me more harm than good. As for the photos and the mementos etc,I don’t think I have that many to begin with… and I just leave them as they are. I don’t scan them to store into the a hard disk. I just leave it to dust I guess. I don’t look at the photos.
I am not sure which approach is better- to remain as friends for my ex or to just have no contact with them and just scan their photos into your hard disk. I honestly don’t know, except that what I do know is that I am by nature a reflective person and sentimental person, and friendships mean alot to me. I will try to stay in touch to whoever I am able to as long as it doesn’t jeopardize my relationship with my husband.
And through my current friendships with my ex which of course has taken a new dimension than before, i learn alot about myself, my past self and how I have change/matured.
I think I still have alot of growing up to do.